my apologies.

Over the past few... weeks that slowly snowballed into months, I have been avoiding social contact including blogging even though I'm not very sure if it's counted as social interaction if no one reads this blog and it's a one sided thing. Too many things has happened the past few months that hurt me and my ego and I'm kind of all over the place. But I'll fix things and I'll fix myself. Because I realised that after all these time, I have become a fixer. Fixing problems and creating solutions to the problems created by myself or others.

And thank you for the concern that people has shown me over the rough months I've had. Appreciate it.

Now let's get on to it.
2014. 

and here are the lessons I've learnt:
1. Never trust anyone. Not even your family members because after all, they are human and humans are all consumed by greed.
2. Yet, be grateful. For everything you have including things that you have lost.
3. Be a bitch. Because life is a bitch and let's face it, Karma doesn't exist because bad things happen to good people.
4. Accept change. Changes take place involuntarily and you have to accept it. Over a period of seconds, minutes, hours. Don't be afraid to confront change because change can be good.
5. Don't be weak. Don't be a pushover. Don't let anyone tell you what to do. Don't. for a second, let your guard down because people will eat you. Alive.

2014. has been the worst year i've gone through. With cutting of family ties, deaths, losing myself to my emotions etc. And I absolutely hate it. Everyday I remember how badly this year has been for me. Everything that was and has been in my control went well. Everything that I can't control went downhill and started eating at me inside out. So farewell 2014, Good fucking riddance.

As for 2015,
I guess we'll see where it goes. I was never the kind that set out resolutions because I clearly don't believe in them. But 2015.. I'll probably be bitch-ier and fiercer than I have ever been and you can only blame it on 2014 and the shit that made me like this.

Also just wondering- if you were to stereotype me.. what would it be?
If people were to judge me.. what am I?
I smoke, I have tattoos, I work 5 days a week at my part time job when I'm not in school, I'm partake in an interest group, I'm not skinny, I obtain pretty above average grades.. I'm not sure if I can ever be just someone of a specific stereotype. So now what? Am I society's outcast?

brussel sprouts

coming up with a post title is so difficult
im actually eating brussel sprouts now for my late lunch

anyway i said i would do a what i ate post so here is it!
this is from 2 days back so enjoy~

breakfast: guacamole on toast and a banana

daily cuppa

meal 2: fruits (gold kiwi and apples!)

meal 3 (lunch): veg and 2 slices of bread

before i went to work i made strawberry tea and threw in a handful of frozen berries. packed 2 bananas for work as well

meal 4: oatmeal at work. and 2 bananas!!

also i ate a cupcake that day bc it was my last day at twelve so that is probably my last cupcake in my entire life. considering that i don't eat cupcakes and didn't eat cupcakes until i started working at twelve.

-

anyway, i was out the entire day yesterday and i couldn't have my meals yesterday at home so i had sushi for both meals. and it was the worst decision i've made because i realised that my body can't work with gluten or carbs..... i felt extremely sluggish and bloated after i ate carbs. And even after i ate a cupcake, i woke up being v bloated the next day (ystd morning) and the bloatedness didn't go away.

so now i'm trying to keep away from gluten and refined sugar and white carbs sigh

this means no sushi anymore (unless i have it moderately) 

anyway, i found gluten free snacks that i used to eat waaay back and had this earlier as a pre lunch thingy

yes 99% fat free and gluten free

also going for a run tonight, quite excited for that. 

i think that's all the updates i've got at the moment.

bye all~

-annabelle tammie-

hey there

hello
feeling rather happy because i managed to survive a short run (or rather, a sprint) after a long and semi-crappy day due to my uncontrollable eating.
and also, very in the mood while listening to arctic monkeys.
i'm looking forward to tomorrow because i have my meals all planned out and have a list of things that i've got to do before school resumes on monday.
I guess I like the feeling of being productive.
I'm also starting to like the shape of my legs/thighs because the muscles are starting to form and less half-muscle/half-flab kind of situation.
but that also means i won't have a big "thigh gap" anymore but hey fuck that!
might do a post of "What I Ate Today" if i have the time or if i remember to take pictures of all my meals hahahaha
-gdnight :-)

quick

blogging a quick post before i head to bed :-) feeling quite content after a day of clearing my desk + cupboard and work. managed to get some food to last me for a couple of weeks so im feeling very motivated right now!! 

and also arms day tomorrow, im excited 👍 

hehe goodnight everyone, good monday!

yasss

rambling

hello there.
i've been back on social media for about 24 to 48 hours and im sick of it already which means i might delete my twitter and instagram and only post when i have things i want to post.
anyhoo, today was a rather good day bc i managed to do some permanent damage to my finances!!!! it's amazing how i made that sound so good like a guilty pleasure. i met brandon today and had lunch + movie + quick shopping trip :-) it was so good but the girl in me is still slightly unsatisfied bc i feel like i need m o r e. but maybe i'll be satisfied when my nastygal package arrives. i got a stussy bucket hat, 2 white tops from topshop, 2 items from zara, 2 items from editor's market and also a thomas sabo charm for my sis for her birthday. yes whatever i've bought is definitely not enough
and also i realised that my cupboard is getting really messy so i'm gonna rearrange it and pack it tomorrow. considering switching my cork board into a jewelry board instead bc everything is just so messy.....
also going for yoga tomorrow to help with the bloatedness
then going to the supermarket
and work at 4!

im quite excited for tomorrow. i know it's gon' be guuuuuuud :-)

the day i was born

birthday and death day mean the same thing and carry the same significance. just that the date of birth is celebrated yearly, simply because we know when we were born. if we knew when our death day is we would probably mourn every year on that day and it'll probably carry more significance than a birthday.
just putting it out there.

anyway so my birthday wasn't a big hooha, it was actually quieter than any other day. thank you to all who wished me especially those who sent out a really long text. means a lot to me when i'm so emotional and fragile these past few weeks. i know i don't reply much but from the bottom of my heart i am really touched :')
so today i went for lunch w my dad's side and had jap food... ate quite a lot. then went kino after my family left since it was at liang court.. papa had to go back to the naval base and kuku went home with the kids so it gave me some alone time. ended up buying 5 books and it might just be the best birthday buys yet (for this year). came home, read a book and fell asleep. woke up and felt quite sick because of my bloated-ness... watched an episode of bones and then mummy came home!! she bought home sushi (again, YAY) and a slice of buckwheat blueberry cake. (my mum honestly knows me THE BEST) and she also bought me a thomas sabo charm bracelet. which i wasn't expecting because she gave me money a few weeks ago to pay for my gym membership and she said this is your birthday present ya. I was OVER THE MOON when she gave me the money and i really wasn't expecting ANYTHING......... ahhhhh. anyway, waited for my bloated tummy to subside a bit and went to the gym wanting to do arms.. but heck the gym was PACKED so i ended up doing interval running and biking for 30 mins without break and daaaaaamn it felt good... esp on the treadmill when you can adjust the incline of it..

however felt like shit when i got home bc my bloated tummy became worse when i chugged down my water :-( but am feeling much better now!

-also don't mean to brag but daaaaamn legs day has been paying off.. 

actually u know what, i reserve every right to brag about my body because i worked my ass off for it. my legs may not be as tiny any more but that's because MY THIGHS R NOW MUSCLES bitches.

goodnight

-annabelle tammie

tick tock, time is running out

ive been working everyday for the past few weeks, juggling 3 jobs and wow ive never felt more exhausted. really feel like crying cos i cant take it. woke up at 6:45am and worked till.. now which is 10:45pm. 7:45am to 8:45pm at the cafe and 9:15 to 10:30 at twelve because they didnt have a closer. my body is overworked and im so so tired. cant believe its my damn fucking birthday tomorrow and i feel so fucking insignificant. im not sure if its the fatigue and cranky-ness that is causing me to be so childish and emotional (really hoping it is). im really not sure how much more i can take :( 

have no one to talk to or turn to cos im scared theyre gonna think im immature and lame and wtf maybe i am la fuck

i hope i can rest for a couple of days before my hectic lite resumes... in any case.. 

here's a selfie in case u ever forgot how i looked like-

-

have been slacking on my fitness routines recently because i've been so busy and work just sucks the life out of me.
i'm rushing a blogpost out because i have work tomorrow morning at 8am :(
i really wanted to go yoga or gym tonight but i had a heavy dinner with mummy so i had to forgo exercising since i have to sleep early.
if it wasn't for work i would be in the gym now.
haven't been in the gym for about a week already oh gosh i feel so guilty.
going to hit the gym on sunday night tho, can't wait :)
need to start planning my gym schedules a week before hand so i don't slack off.
goodnight everyone!!!!!!!!

understand

recently i've been a quitter. or maybe i have a quitter mindset. for a moment today, i wanted to quit everything and just stop working so hard for everything. money, my body, results. e v e r y single thing. I wanted to break down and cry because i couldn't see any results coming out from all the hard work and sweat i'm putting in. until the end of today, when i realised that it's too early for any results to be shown and results takes time. maybe for others it merely takes a few days and weeks but everyone is different and i just need more time. I need to give myself time to learn everything and be good at all of it. i expect great results from substandard work that i'm producing and thats wrong. sigh, i need to really be more patient. :(
-

jiggle juggle

-foods and places i've been enjoying- 

hello there, a few updates...

1. i didn't quit twelve,

2. i have a new job

3. actually i have 2 new jobs

4. yes i am currently working 3 jobs.

5. workouts have been going downhill

andddddddd i still cant fathom the fact that i'm turning 18 next friday. I don't feel particularly special so yup.

And i'm exhausted, frankly speaking. I'm running around bc i'm currently juggling 2 jobs and my third one hasn't quite started yet and wow......... i am BEYOND EXHAUSTED hahahahahahaha

but yea

when i wanted to blog i had a million things to say now i have nothing to say

alright bye

good vibes

yum breakfast

hello hello!
i woke up extra early today at 8:30 to the sound and smell of rain which put me in a good mood.
sliced my wholemeal loaf and had pbj and bananas on bread for breakfast :-)
wanted to hit the gym, but the rain convinced me that staying at home (more particularly, in bed) is a much better choice this thursday morning.
however, my body has this urge to run again and i'm really starting to love running A LOT.
my runs keep getting faster and every time i run, i'll constantly tell myself that every step is a improvement to my body. hehe, 3 days ago my average pace was 6 mins/km but yesterday it was 5mins 55 sec/km!!!!! i know to you guys it's no biggie cos it's only 5 seconds... but constant improvement will lead to a big difference.
oh and yesterday i had my cheat meal after my run which didn't quite settle in my tummy so everything came out this morning (which made me feel even better!!)
yay, almost to my first week's mark of clean eating and exercising :-)
can't wait till it's my first month, year, decade etc!!! So many milestones to achieve, i'm so pumped up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

good thursday everyone!!
-annabelle x tammie

morning walk

woke up at 9:30 this morning and didn't have any plans for today so that meant that i can take my day slow today :-)
had a hearty breakfast (pbj sandwich with a banana)
and decided to take a walk to a bakery at katong called bakers' well!
i'm not quite sure if the main point of this post is about bakers' well or my morning walk.. but i just wanted to note down how i feel i guess..
i never actually had a morning walk.. because i'm too busy or i always had plans whenever i had an off day. (or i woke up too late oops)
the morning sun was nice and gentle. i loved every step i took and it was refreshing. i saw katong in a new light today, i took in the colours and vibrancy of the shophouses.. the smell of coffee as i walk pass the coffee shops (cafes) and how quiet it was in the morning (other than the noise from cars).
reached bakers well and fell in LOVE with all their breads. i'm a sucker for bread and carbs so i could have bought the entire shop if i had the money..
i was greeted by a very charming and suave young man (i think he's the baker!) and he had a friendly and warm smile. It was nice to see that especially when you're already having a great day.. i bought 6 muffins (for my family) and the great thing about it is.. they're baked with NO butter and LESS sugar!!!!! i wanted to buy all their flavours really. it was 6 for $10.90 (i think) so WHY NOT. cheap price for GOOD food.
i also bought a loaf of wholemeal walnut raisin bread and banana bread.
i went to baker's well with an intention of just buying a loaf of banana bread..... but i guess not heh.
everything came up to $20.90!!! absolutely cheap price for amazing quality (& quantity!)

i'll definitely visit them again (in 3 days i reckon)  to buy more bread! 

say no to supermarket breads everyone!!!!!! 

say yes to homemade goodness :-) 

reasons

believe me when i say i have my reasons to take hiatus from everything.
first thing u need to know about me is that i dont like attention. i do like it for a short period of time but then i feel that i tend to stray away from who i truly am to maintain the current standards of me that they're seeing. i feel that i can't do this or do that because im scared that i'll become fat or lose my image in front of everyone. i start restricting myself, and i start seeing myself in perspective of how other's view me.
and eventually i get tired.
so tired of maybe craving attention and/or wanting more attention.. i guess that's the thing, i start changing myself to become the person i'm not.... i start binge eating cos i'm consuming way too little everyday and i start eating at night because i get so so so hungry from not eating properly in the day. i stop exercising because im scared of getting bulky and my legs build muscles rly rly fast. im scared ill lose the only feature of myself that i like and end up having big legs. i crave the body that i used to have because everyone liked it so much more, which made me want it even more.
and i didn't realise how much i'm emotionally hurting myself.
today i used my big bulky quads and hamstrings to give myself a good 5km run. and i did it below 30 minutes. i deleted twitter and insta and fb so i know that the only reason why i ran so fast or well is because im getting stronger, and not to be a people please-r or impress anyone.
and yes, i may be getting bigger, but who the fuck cares when my body is enjoying it?

its good to know that 3 days away from social media has given me so much time for self discovery...
can't imagine how great i'll start to feel in a few weeks' time..
till then, im slowly building myself up...
happy is a state of mind, and i want to make it permanent. having a good body is just one way to make me happy. it's part of my goal, NOT my goal. There are so many more factors that come together to form a happy state of mind, and slowly but surely, i will get there one day.

taking it a day at a time
-annabelle tammie

tick tock

i have 20 mins to type this post out
basically im feeling like shit
i put on 4kg n i just looked through all my pictures and almost cried bc i put on so much weight
i have to constantly remind myself that it didnt take me 2 days to look like this shit so it wont take me 2 days to get my old body back

i'll get there
i know i will.
till then, goodbye
i've deleted my instagram, facebook and twitter app.
also deleted all my pictures of myself in my camera roll
and soon i'll MIA from my phone n will only be replying a handful of people such as natty and.. yea basically just her probably haha

x
-annabelle tammie

honey i need u

struggling to stop my eyelids from slowly drooping downas i type this post out. I have a strong feeling that i'll zonk out while editing my slides later.
on a side note, i found a new job (awesome possum) and i'm quite excited. but that means i'll have to bid twelve and the amazing team at ccp goodbye.
Ahhh, attachment is difficult especially when i get attached to people so easily. but thankfully i adapt easily as well and thats how i get rid of my attachment aha.
anyway, been hitting the gym v frequently n my body is................ aching.....
i feel old. but gotta do whatever it takes to whippppppp this body into good shape

rly liking this pic

groceries

we accept the love we think we deserve

typing this post while waiting for my food to get digested..... argh so annoyed even tho i ate before 8 and i've been waiting for my food to get digested since. now i can't hit the gym or everything will just come out >:(

anyhoooooo, ystd i was talking to kh and i realised that i hate the statement "we accept the love we think we deserve" If we really accept the love we think we deserve, and the love that we are receiving is destructive to our well being... is that what we really deserve then? Is our self worth that low? I would like to think that if you're in a relationship that you're not happy in, you deserve more. If you feel that you're being neglected or suffocated then you deserve more. You're not receiving the love that you TRULY deserve but you're taking what you can get. Snap out of it. 

Eventually when one is overwhelmed with emotions and has gotten used to the love that s/he is receiving, we tend to think that that's the love we deserve. because we're so used to it. That's why we don't realise that maybe we're receiving lesser than what we deserve. 

Why subject yourself to this "love" you think you're receiving when it's nothing more than lust or emotional thoughts that was implanted in your head? why? when you can get so much better? 

Why make yourself think that you're that pathetic that you can only be loved that much? when someone out there can make you feel like the most important, beautiful, mesmerizing, fascinating being on this planet earth out of the 7 billion people? 

The question is; why would you think that this filth is what you deserve? 

nil

well im bad at blogging frequently... defo... hahahahaha
every time i open my browser and go to the blogger webpage.. i get lazy and close it
thankfully it only applies for this (and many other things like clearing my bags- i'll take a look at my bag and then just dump it aside and walk away hah) BUT it doesnt apply for gymming YAY

so i've been going to the gym quite frequently and i'm actually heading down later hehe.
I haven't been up to much other than eating notoriously large amounts (i wld like to think its a part of my PMS) and hitting the gym and working.
Oh and I've also been to a few job interviews and wondering which ones i should take up... bc twelve is asking me to retract my resignation as well. (oh decisions...)

here's some visuals to update u!!!!!!!

-the baristas at ccp sb has been increasingly nice to me (which makes me slightly sadder that im leaving 12 cos they used to be SO COLD n MEAN n RUDE to me >:( but now they're so nice) 

-one of the marcannadventures day

- became a red head

-i've been loving avocado.. juice? ice blended... drink? 

- natty gg to UK to study but SHE'S COMING BACK FOR CHRISTMASSSSSSS

-sleepy eyes sefli

- marcannadventures 

- ootd2dgym

MOMMY.

oh and 

im gg to bali in nov (it's on a monday to thurs which means i'm skipping sch......)

which also means that.... im gg to need a perfect attendance for the first half of the term (oh goodness gracious the cab money im gg to have to spend) 

yea basically that's it heh

my thoughts on turning 18

For the past few days, which might have turned into weeks, I've been working full shifts back to back and dragging my lifeless soul to work everyday.... doing the same thing that I've been doing the past 9 months which has pretty much become my second nature.
So after giving it much thought I resigned from my job at twelve. I wouldn't say being at twelve has taught me a lot of life-skills but i've definitely learnt a great deal while being there. Not anything to do with baking definitely (i'm still a bad baker lol), but it's more of juggling the numerous responsibilities at once. Some moments, I felt like I was Hannah Montana. From doing MIG admin things, to calling my project group mates to check on our progress and making personal home calls when my parents were overseas to check on the devils - all while working.... Maaaaan, it was a difficult and hell of a tiring 9 months and I DEFINITELY wouldn't say I've excelled each and every job and/or responsibility but I think I did a pretty decent job handling all aspects of my life at the same time

Moving on....

I think it's time for some changes.. It's time for me to find a hobby again, (after I dropped gymnastics for poly) find a new job that breaks my boundaries, find time to spend with my family, start learning about investing and study a lot a lot harder.
While at work today, I was thinking of how lucky I've been so far and I can only thank my parents and family for the continuous support and money that they've invested in me. Thinking back, I've been blessed with having so many opportunities of having to experience the different hobbies in life.. living in france and sleeping in a laundry basket all the time (i consider that a hobby.), private swimming lessons when i was only k2 (?), learning how to ride a bicycle when i was p1, joining handbells in pri school and then netball, then choir in secondary school and learning hiphop and street jazz, and also guitar and violin, then came gymnastics (the sport i loved, lived and breathed) and recently did yoga for a couple of months.
I've never actually considered myself lucky but now I do. I realised how dumb it is of me to constantly be so negative about everything around me when I'm blessed with a supportive family and countless and endless opportunities to venture the world out there.

As Im turning 18,
I'm learning to cherish the mere second of each day and making the most out of it. Ditching the anger (well not all of it, if not i wouldn't be anna) and negativity, and taking in the positive vibes.
And while everyone else hits the club when they turn 18, imma be hitting the gym and going..... wakeboarding. hehe, i've decided that I'm going to wakeboard as a new hobby (which will K I L L my bank account)
also, i'm pretty sure that my expenses are about to be very different from every other 18 year old. It'll mostly consist of 1. gym membership expenses. 2. wakeboarding classes expenses 3.shoes (gotta satisfy that girl in me hehe)

* they said that you know you have done a good job with your life when your life is what your 8 year old self pictured it to be. I'm happy to say that the life that I have is far better than the one I pictured myself to have. And the best part? It can only get better. :-)




Goodnight everyone, spread the good vibes.
-a

fat anna goes FIT

hello hello,
as seeeen from the title yes im blogging about getting fit again wow ANNA WHEN WILL YOU STOP.
but okay the truth is the past few.. weeks i've been eating like CRAP and feeling CRAPPIER and i think it's time that i took being healthy more seriously. (inserts angry emoji)
side note: its 1 am and im doing a draft for this post because i was lazy to take pictures of my food log but tmr i will and i update this post again (not sure why im even saying this because you guys will know, but haaaaaaay i'm putting in effort!)

so anyway, i've decided to be a lot A LOT healthier simply because i want a hotter body (let's face it, who on this green green earth doesn't?) and if you didn't realise i always go into these "healthy" phases whenever its the holidays HAHA. but this time it shall be permanent. i've never put in so much effort into cooking and preparing food before, i'm actually quite surprised! Read on if you want to know what i've been doing or what i'm going to do for this lifestyle change! p.s/ it's not a diet, it's a lifestyle change :)

feel free to join me in this fitness journey n we can all be fit together YAY!!!!!! and have hot bodies!!!!!! and make singapore even hotter!!!!!!!!! ohyeah!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok first up -

!!! 3 WEEKS CLEANSE !!!!
This cleanse is to actually get rid of the bad eating habits that all or most of us have. So this means that during this time frame, i'm going to

1. stop eating junk THIS INCLUDES ALL YOUR SWEET DRINKS AND SWEETS AND ALL THE GOOD SINFUL UNHEALTHY FOOD THE GOOD GOD HAS BLESSED US WITH like krispy kreme and ice cream and UNHEALTHY frozen yogurt and pretzels and french fries and apple pie (inserts a spam of crying emoji)

2. DRINK AT LEAST 2 LITRES OF WATER A DAY - ok i can't measure how much i drink but normally i have this hugeass bottle i bring around (most of the time to work) and i refill it around 3 to 4 times a day. or what you can do is buy a 500ml water bottle and make sure you empty it at least 4 times! water is v impt in weight loss (and i did not do my research on why it is important but MAKE SURE YOU DRINK THE HELL UP!)

3. cut down on carbs. I've said in my previous post (it's actually on the joint blog i have w natty http://advofnatandanna.blogspot.sg/) that I AM ADDICTED TO CARBS i'm not even kidding, i look at sushi and get a bit sad at times because i know that even though it is healthy, the carb content is mad high and it's the reason why i get so bloated at the end of every day :( ok when i say cut down on carbs........ i think i'll leave that to the meal plans part.. yup.

4. WATCH YOUR SODIUM CONTENT. this means that you should always keep in mind how much of salt you're actually consuming. try and opt for things with lesser sodium, if you're buying fries (which you should not even be doing excuse me?) try and go with fries without salt. Its bad bc it makes you have higher blood pressure which may lead to stroke or heart disease. AND ALSO, salt causes water retention which makes you LOOK bloated and makes you think you gained weight (A lot of weight btw) so if u wanna be lean then cut down on dat salt gurl

5. Stick to healthier options. Such as low fat, reduced fat (which means the same thing lol), lesser sugar, lesser salt etc!!!!! have u heard LESS IS MORE so the lesser the unhealthy things you consume THE MORE YOU LOOK HOTTER WOOOO. on a serious note tho, it's the smallest decisions like these that actually changes our diets and bodies as a whole!

So those are the 5 "guidelines" that i would or actually am sticking to throughout these 3 weeks to help kick my bad eating habits (for those that think i'm perfect and always healthy, NO I'M NOT bc i have this bad addiction to sweet things like oreos AND I SNACK ALL THE TIME. UGH but i'm kicking that bad habit so YOU SHOULD TOO!!!!) join me in this torturous and sad 3 week journey, BECAUSE ONCE THESE THREE WEEKS ARE OVER, these 5 "guidelines" will eventually start being your GOOD HABITS! because habits take 3 weeks to develop so YAY!

okay now for the meals part.........................
so we go from breakfast to dinner (last meal of the day)

BREAKFAST
normally for breakfast i have milk and cereal! absolutely love cereal and it's my greatest weakness. it's so bad that i eat 2 servings every morning! hehhh
this is the milk i drink and the cereal i eat.

milk - from the organic section in ntuc, $3.90

cereal - POST Great Grains (normally switch around the type i eat, this is the banana nut crunch one!) $5.95

most of the time i buy my milk 2 cartons at a time because i use milk to make my overnight oats as well as pancakes and i tend to finish it within 4 days (max).

if i have time in the morning, i'll fry some pancakes too!

erm, if I'm not wrong, the brand of my pancake mix is called ORGAN and it's organic, gluten free, buckwheat pancake mix! it's affordable too, priced at $5.90. The portion is actually quite a lot and for that morning i made a stack of 5 pancakes for brunch and it was 1/3 to 1/4 of the mix. 

So what i would do is, I would prepare my batter the NIGHT BEFORE and only use HALF of the pancake mix, meaning that all measurements will be cut by half (eg instead of 90ml, use 45ml) and 3 eggs, use 1 and a half (ok i never really got the 1 and a half thing but i always use 2 egg whites and 1/2 yolk heh????) 

yup, and normally half a mix can last me 2 servings (for normal human beings with only 1 stomach instead of 4, it would probably last you 3 servings LOL) 

I add blue berries into the mix and fold them in, then fry them on a non stick pan WITHOUT oil or butter! I top them up with sunflower seeds and devour them after hehe. (OH AND MAPLE SYRUP!)

next for LUNCH/DINNER

okay why i say lunch or dinner is because today i've decided to switch my diet around and have oatmeal for dinner instead of lunch because my dinner is too heavy to be a dinner. So you can take your pick, if you think that overnight oats is heavy then choose that for lunch instead!! Your meals are supposed to be smaller as the day goes by, not bigger :) 

So overnight oats!

I've been making overnight oats for the past 3 weeks already. It's really simple and good!! and super filling. You can google for the recipe and initially when i started making overnight oats, i've been following the Kath Eats Real Food recipe ( http://www.katheats.com/favorite-foods/overnightoats ) but i feel that it's a bit too heavy because you use both milk and greek yogurt so I switched to just greek yogurt by using a 1:1 ratio 

my rendition of "strawberry shortcake" hehe, it's oatmeal layers with a strawberry middle YUM

not quite sure what brand of oatmeal i use (you can try and zoom in but i just tried with my comp and i cant heh) but whatever brand it is, make sure it is ROLLED oats and not INSTANT oats because you cant make overnight oats with instant oats haha. i would mix my oats with greek yogurt, maple syrup/honey, chia seeds and cinnamon then top them off with sunflower seeds! 

I would normally make 4 batches at a go, so that i don't have to keep making... but i ran out of yogurt last night so I only made two batches. :( so far i've tried making apple and cinnamon, strawberries, blueberries and bananas! All tastes equally good yum. 

btw, this is made the night before so that the oatmeal can set! You can keep it for up to a week if i'm not wrong! I've tried mine after 5 days and it still tastes gooooood.

As for my other meal, I'm trying to have a form of protein so I would cook chicken breast!!!

I've only JUST started cooking chicken because i don't trust myself with the stove and also i always just ate salad LOL.

so for today's dinner at work, i made myself soba and chicken (prepared from last night of course) 

i love love love japanese soba and this is the organic Zaru Soba (buckwheat soba) and what I do is, I will first marinate the chicken at the beginning of the day with pepper and a BIT of salt and sesame oil and leave it in the fridge. Then I'll boil it at night when I get home (actually i think marinating is redundant...... i have no idea) and I'll cook my soba too! I leave both of them to cool down then I'll dice the chicken. I put the noodles into my tupperware and put 4 tablespoons of soba sauce. You have to know that the sauce to soba ratio is VERY little so don't worry because, imagine dipping your soba into 4 tablespoons of sauce. yup. And also, I mean TABLESPOON not SOUP SPOON yeah. haha. okay anyway, I put the chicken on top and some cherry tomatoes and leave them in the fridge.

As for tomorrow's meal, I made chicken salad which is just veggies with brocoli, beans, tomatoes and boiled chicken. 

hot chick

for my leafy greens, i actually buy those that are already in the bag. If i'm not wrong, the brand is called crunchy and its $3.90. I'll take a picture and update tomorrow or thursday! because I'm not doing meal prep tomorrow night hehe, thursday imma go outttttt yayers!

anyway, I'm heading to bed now cos it's the second night that I'm actually finishing this draft aha,

from now onwards, I'll be posting up pictures and descriptions of my meals and workouts everyday! :) yay hope you're as excited as I am!!! goodnight all~

oh oh, next post will probably touch a bit on work out as well. Not so much though, probably just a bit ;) hehe gdnight now~