exhausted

Hello everyone.
I gave training a miss today because it's raining really heavily and there's no way I can get to training without getting drenched. :-( sigh. And I've had a pretty shitty afternoon already.
Don't you (guys) ever find it exhausting trying to please people?
When you please someone, you make another person unhappy. It's like no matter what I do, it'll never be right or enough. I think the worst part is, in the midst of trying to please everyone, I'm not even pleasing myself... I give everyone what they want, and in the process, I lose sight what I want.
I'm getting so tired and drained out because every time I try to please someone, I end up getting hurt. And I don't even care because what matters to me is that they're happy.
And now, I just feel broken and empty.........
I'm getting so tired, I need a hug and I need someone that believes in me.
Can I please just die.
I'm really getting very emotionally exhausted at what everyone has been throwing at me.
When will this end?
Even my father has given up on me