rambling

hello there.
i've been back on social media for about 24 to 48 hours and im sick of it already which means i might delete my twitter and instagram and only post when i have things i want to post.
anyhoo, today was a rather good day bc i managed to do some permanent damage to my finances!!!! it's amazing how i made that sound so good like a guilty pleasure. i met brandon today and had lunch + movie + quick shopping trip :-) it was so good but the girl in me is still slightly unsatisfied bc i feel like i need m o r e. but maybe i'll be satisfied when my nastygal package arrives. i got a stussy bucket hat, 2 white tops from topshop, 2 items from zara, 2 items from editor's market and also a thomas sabo charm for my sis for her birthday. yes whatever i've bought is definitely not enough
and also i realised that my cupboard is getting really messy so i'm gonna rearrange it and pack it tomorrow. considering switching my cork board into a jewelry board instead bc everything is just so messy.....
also going for yoga tomorrow to help with the bloatedness
then going to the supermarket
and work at 4!

im quite excited for tomorrow. i know it's gon' be guuuuuuud :-)

the day i was born

birthday and death day mean the same thing and carry the same significance. just that the date of birth is celebrated yearly, simply because we know when we were born. if we knew when our death day is we would probably mourn every year on that day and it'll probably carry more significance than a birthday.
just putting it out there.

anyway so my birthday wasn't a big hooha, it was actually quieter than any other day. thank you to all who wished me especially those who sent out a really long text. means a lot to me when i'm so emotional and fragile these past few weeks. i know i don't reply much but from the bottom of my heart i am really touched :')
so today i went for lunch w my dad's side and had jap food... ate quite a lot. then went kino after my family left since it was at liang court.. papa had to go back to the naval base and kuku went home with the kids so it gave me some alone time. ended up buying 5 books and it might just be the best birthday buys yet (for this year). came home, read a book and fell asleep. woke up and felt quite sick because of my bloated-ness... watched an episode of bones and then mummy came home!! she bought home sushi (again, YAY) and a slice of buckwheat blueberry cake. (my mum honestly knows me THE BEST) and she also bought me a thomas sabo charm bracelet. which i wasn't expecting because she gave me money a few weeks ago to pay for my gym membership and she said this is your birthday present ya. I was OVER THE MOON when she gave me the money and i really wasn't expecting ANYTHING......... ahhhhh. anyway, waited for my bloated tummy to subside a bit and went to the gym wanting to do arms.. but heck the gym was PACKED so i ended up doing interval running and biking for 30 mins without break and daaaaaamn it felt good... esp on the treadmill when you can adjust the incline of it..

however felt like shit when i got home bc my bloated tummy became worse when i chugged down my water :-( but am feeling much better now!

-also don't mean to brag but daaaaamn legs day has been paying off.. 

actually u know what, i reserve every right to brag about my body because i worked my ass off for it. my legs may not be as tiny any more but that's because MY THIGHS R NOW MUSCLES bitches.

goodnight

-annabelle tammie

tick tock, time is running out

ive been working everyday for the past few weeks, juggling 3 jobs and wow ive never felt more exhausted. really feel like crying cos i cant take it. woke up at 6:45am and worked till.. now which is 10:45pm. 7:45am to 8:45pm at the cafe and 9:15 to 10:30 at twelve because they didnt have a closer. my body is overworked and im so so tired. cant believe its my damn fucking birthday tomorrow and i feel so fucking insignificant. im not sure if its the fatigue and cranky-ness that is causing me to be so childish and emotional (really hoping it is). im really not sure how much more i can take :( 

have no one to talk to or turn to cos im scared theyre gonna think im immature and lame and wtf maybe i am la fuck

i hope i can rest for a couple of days before my hectic lite resumes... in any case.. 

here's a selfie in case u ever forgot how i looked like-

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have been slacking on my fitness routines recently because i've been so busy and work just sucks the life out of me.
i'm rushing a blogpost out because i have work tomorrow morning at 8am :(
i really wanted to go yoga or gym tonight but i had a heavy dinner with mummy so i had to forgo exercising since i have to sleep early.
if it wasn't for work i would be in the gym now.
haven't been in the gym for about a week already oh gosh i feel so guilty.
going to hit the gym on sunday night tho, can't wait :)
need to start planning my gym schedules a week before hand so i don't slack off.
goodnight everyone!!!!!!!!

understand

recently i've been a quitter. or maybe i have a quitter mindset. for a moment today, i wanted to quit everything and just stop working so hard for everything. money, my body, results. e v e r y single thing. I wanted to break down and cry because i couldn't see any results coming out from all the hard work and sweat i'm putting in. until the end of today, when i realised that it's too early for any results to be shown and results takes time. maybe for others it merely takes a few days and weeks but everyone is different and i just need more time. I need to give myself time to learn everything and be good at all of it. i expect great results from substandard work that i'm producing and thats wrong. sigh, i need to really be more patient. :(
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jiggle juggle

-foods and places i've been enjoying- 

hello there, a few updates...

1. i didn't quit twelve,

2. i have a new job

3. actually i have 2 new jobs

4. yes i am currently working 3 jobs.

5. workouts have been going downhill

andddddddd i still cant fathom the fact that i'm turning 18 next friday. I don't feel particularly special so yup.

And i'm exhausted, frankly speaking. I'm running around bc i'm currently juggling 2 jobs and my third one hasn't quite started yet and wow......... i am BEYOND EXHAUSTED hahahahahahaha

but yea

when i wanted to blog i had a million things to say now i have nothing to say

alright bye

good vibes

yum breakfast

hello hello!
i woke up extra early today at 8:30 to the sound and smell of rain which put me in a good mood.
sliced my wholemeal loaf and had pbj and bananas on bread for breakfast :-)
wanted to hit the gym, but the rain convinced me that staying at home (more particularly, in bed) is a much better choice this thursday morning.
however, my body has this urge to run again and i'm really starting to love running A LOT.
my runs keep getting faster and every time i run, i'll constantly tell myself that every step is a improvement to my body. hehe, 3 days ago my average pace was 6 mins/km but yesterday it was 5mins 55 sec/km!!!!! i know to you guys it's no biggie cos it's only 5 seconds... but constant improvement will lead to a big difference.
oh and yesterday i had my cheat meal after my run which didn't quite settle in my tummy so everything came out this morning (which made me feel even better!!)
yay, almost to my first week's mark of clean eating and exercising :-)
can't wait till it's my first month, year, decade etc!!! So many milestones to achieve, i'm so pumped up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

good thursday everyone!!
-annabelle x tammie