Over the past few... weeks that slowly snowballed into months, I have been avoiding social contact including blogging even though I'm not very sure if it's counted as social interaction if no one reads this blog and it's a one sided thing. Too many things has happened the past few months that hurt me and my ego and I'm kind of all over the place. But I'll fix things and I'll fix myself. Because I realised that after all these time, I have become a fixer. Fixing problems and creating solutions to the problems created by myself or others.
And thank you for the concern that people has shown me over the rough months I've had. Appreciate it.
Now let's get on to it.
2014.
and here are the lessons I've learnt:
1. Never trust anyone. Not even your family members because after all, they are human and humans are all consumed by greed.
2. Yet, be grateful. For everything you have including things that you have lost.
3. Be a bitch. Because life is a bitch and let's face it, Karma doesn't exist because bad things happen to good people.
4. Accept change. Changes take place involuntarily and you have to accept it. Over a period of seconds, minutes, hours. Don't be afraid to confront change because change can be good.
5. Don't be weak. Don't be a pushover. Don't let anyone tell you what to do. Don't. for a second, let your guard down because people will eat you. Alive.
2014. has been the worst year i've gone through. With cutting of family ties, deaths, losing myself to my emotions etc. And I absolutely hate it. Everyday I remember how badly this year has been for me. Everything that was and has been in my control went well. Everything that I can't control went downhill and started eating at me inside out. So farewell 2014, Good fucking riddance.
As for 2015,
I guess we'll see where it goes. I was never the kind that set out resolutions because I clearly don't believe in them. But 2015.. I'll probably be bitch-ier and fiercer than I have ever been and you can only blame it on 2014 and the shit that made me like this.
Also just wondering- if you were to stereotype me.. what would it be?
If people were to judge me.. what am I?
I smoke, I have tattoos, I work 5 days a week at my part time job when I'm not in school, I'm partake in an interest group, I'm not skinny, I obtain pretty above average grades.. I'm not sure if I can ever be just someone of a specific stereotype. So now what? Am I society's outcast?
